Lowkey

Only he can fill that void.

You're using that personality as a cover. You're tired. You're really tired. The pain eats you from the inside. That anger you constantly show, that constant partying, those sleeping around, those drugs, the time you consume on social media, the wannabe’s you constantly want to be, even that excessive funny personality... You know deep down it's not you. You're using those as a camouflage. After the day is gone and you're alone, you revisit those pain, those memories everyday. You just feel alone and lonely even as you prep to act for the next 24 hours. You take temporary happiness on these things and you plunge deeper each day wishing for that void you constantly feel to be filled up.

To worsen matters, it seems as though you've tried God and religion failed. The church ruined everything. So you've even shut that off. Part of your frustration and anger is now channeled towards God with all of your pain and unanswered questions. Where was he when? Why didn't he do anything when…? Where is he now when.....?

You react to life by either avoiding as much as you can and hiding under the comedy of memes or responding with the pain in your heart when you can no longer take it. I get you. I really do. But I'm here to tell you the solution you might have probably heard a million times and the mistake you've probably been making in application of that solution. Of course God is the solution. Why? He's the only definition of anything good and HE LOVES YOU more than you even love yourself.

How do I know? It's not a coincidence that you woke up to scroll on social media only for you to be patient to read these long epistle word for word when you've probably skipped many before this. It's another medium for him to tell you that he really means it anytime he tells you that he really really does love you. You've searched around to give yourself names to just see where you fit in just for some sort of acceptance. Zodiac signs, temperament groups, anti-ambivert, extrovert, introvert, monivert, everything.... You're giving yourself terminologies from societal constructs to just satisfy an imbalance from the inside which both of us know might only be working in terms of societal acceptance and comfort. But deep down, that thirst isn't still quenched, that hole isn't still closed.... You're still fighting yourself everyday. I really say again, God is your answer

"But you've tried him before, nothing happened. It's just weaponized religion to mess with our mindset. Nobody is coming to save you, you're the only one for yourself. "

These lies from the world have messed with your mindset so much that you might have thought you tried God. I put it to you that you found religion not God if nothing changed. Religion is man's failed attempt to explain God and reach him. You might have trusted men, people, leaders and all who are all God figures and it all came crashing and you gave up... I am really sorry about this…

Your parents might have been pastors but seeing them up close and seeing the atrocities they committed asking you to keep quiet about or the ones the tried to hide which you saw and experienced might have taunted your mindset about God, but you didn't meet God.

A Religion, which many people use to define and determine their relationship with God, has done a very bad job and you'll most likely misinterpret and mistake a lot of things about God while in a religious path which would most likely end up in frustration. How then can I really meet God? Unlike how complicated the world has made it seem, it's one of the simplest things to do on earth. Believe God isn't superficial, he's real than your very breath. The stupidity of the world has limited belief to sight only.

Meanwhile, the real forces that guide the world are unseen. As how?.. Air, gravity, emotions etc. We've somehow been made to believe these things are real and we're even studying them, yet the real person behind the existence of all things has been made a mirage to us. Even people that believe in his existence believe it as fairy tale. Look at the world...

Those people that talk about Jesus too much, they do too much Jesus things for example like me (laughs) it's because it's filling that void I have been talking about. There's a joy, a glow around them which you might want to deny you aren't seeing it's just the devil trying to cover your eyes really really, can nobody do you like Jesus.

Well Jesus isn't a story in the Bible. Really, he's a person. He's the origin of peace, my peace. But the thing is, I can only tell you as much as I can about him, you'll experience as much as possible only when you believe. It's really crazy and wild to believe God (ALMIGHTY ALAGBARA GOD THAT CAN DO EVERYTHING) came as a man to die for our sins so we don't perish just because he loves us so much even unto death. But look at it, you in all your wisdom aren't better off... Instead, it's been a back and forth story deep down and a hole only Jesus can cover.

The truth? You need to believe first even before understanding, then, you'll understand what you first believed. This is no religion, this is no fantasy. Every person experiencing true peace of mind and joy and fulfillment only does that because he has Jesus. If you're waiting for money and "prosperity" to fill that gap, you're waiting for something that can pass away, something temporary, as your hope. Now that would be unwise. Sit down in that corner of your room today. Believe that there's a God right there at your front listening to you. Pour out all your heart, cry, express yourself, state all your questions, your worries... Just you and him alone.... Let all those years of boxed traumas, pain, scars... Let them out... Let them all out... Because trust Then for the first time in a long while, trust God enough to enter and take over this time.

You've tried your possible best, isn't it time to let go? Or do you have more time to waste? Tell him you want him to take over. By stating it with your mouth, it shows allegiance to his Lordship.

However, you have to believe that Jesus actually came to die for your sins. That is the foundation of everything really. Believe that HE DIED, WAS BURIED AND HE RESURRECTED here by perfection the work on your behalf. No matter how many times you've heard this, no matter how many times people have rubbished it, it's THE TRUTH.

Pour that last hanging strength you have into believing Jesus, accepting him and expressing your mind to him.... Sincerely. There are no even "ifs" cos your life can never have that vacuum with Jesus... Well, except you want it to stay and you like it.

And if you drew back, you know it's all wrong what you are doing now but you can't seem to stop and find yourself back where you used to be with God, it's fine. He will always accept you. You can read this article

I pray that you find God and that peace that supersedes human understanding would flood your heart and that healing you need would be administered accurately to you by the Holy Spirit. Shalom

This piece is not my original writing, I copied it from a status update by my coursemate and friend Eniola Zoe

Song for the season?

You guessed right, it's I Surrender by Hillsong worship

Bye, see you on Sunday!